23rd may 2010

DAWN N DUSK OF AN IITIAN---part1

23rd may,2010

My first year at the Indian Institute of Technology was just like any other  fresher though in a more screwed up and mismanaged  way. Today I am here to confess that I fail to upkeep to the standards of the best engineering institute of India which demands nothing but enormous fresh brains to mug up the 1000 gb syllabus and load it in the wonderful   hard drive called the brain. Its been a year at the IIT and it hurts to say that this has been the most insignificant, unproductive and hopeless year of my life. Life wasn’t so dumb and lame  before……..

Thou art say the only way to success is hardwork…..but is this really the success I, as an individual is looking  for?? Pple say go 2 iit n urlyf is heaven……the placements can fetch u a handsome salary……can somebody tell me how do u cherish dat salary wen u were never happy with wateva u did in urlyf??? What if u just tuk the wrong turn and landed up here by default?????

From my middle school dayz, I have alwaz been the topper of my school. There hardly have  xisted people who were in the vicinity of my  marks. The feeling was gr8 and I thought I could be the best. It boosted up my self-confidence.  I decided upon the JEE, the toughest xam in India to crack(biggest mistake of my life i still regret).  And here I landed upon, the Indian Institute  of Technology, the college every engineering freak dreams of. Little did I know that I was one of  the unluckiest of the 4000  selected among 400000 aspirants.
My 1st  class at the IIT made me sure enough that I wasn’t atall meant for the stuff they tried to teach. U call it teachin?? I rather call it overdosing to hibernation for a semester…..
I still kept going…………………………………

In a few days I kept engaging myself in other activities going round the campus. I cracked every possible nut to avoid studies. As if it never mattered to me if I were a 5 point sum1 or a 10……U mug well, u get a 10….u mug well and u 4get in da xam, u r a fucking 5. Jesus!!! Life has never been so easy.

My parents gave me the ultimatum to leave IIT or face it……I wantd 2 leave it dat very moment  had I known a place better than this according to the crowd.  Life just became so incomprehensible and reckless as the dayz counted ……the boring academics, dreadful  mess food, cant get along friends, miserable love life, a shattered confidence, a low self-esteem was all that I was gifted in the past year by myself…..i have seen the greatest of minds here failing in biotech  and behavioral science……u ask them the toughest  of  logics  and u get it right out of them…..did they deserve to fail???

I may sound against the IITs......but its just that i am not able to  flow in the direction IIT is trying to take me to.

Does the IIT really define the art of living??the authorities need to rethink.  I have learnt recently that life is beautiful, no matter what…..no matter how hard it takes to survive.  Survival of the fittest is the order of the day….. u live everyday as u are born 2 die everynight and cherish every moment of it……..or u live ur life unsatisfied and a few unfinished dreams, not to mention the complaining nature……..the choice is urs…….

So 2day after screwing up my 1styr at iit, here I am trying to fall in love with life in every possible way I can, try  hard in future to upkeep  peoples xpectations from me…….it really getz 2 my nerves when I see tourists visiting my campus appreciating the beauty of nature, taking snaps in front of the dean building which I cross everyday to reach my department.  As we all know, perception differs……I can in no way find a reason 2 love the beauty of iit which has made my life a trapped king on the chessboard having nobody to help me out…….the only way out is to replay the game tactfully ………
to be continued dated 23rd may,2011…………………………………..

Comments

  1. AnonymousDecember 17, 2014 at 5:06 PM

    This was an amazing write up. Loved it the way you described your perception difference with the outsiders.

    And Its a true story about the difference from within and from outside a premier institute.

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