FAR FROM THE MADDING CROWD.............


A moment of tranquility……..

As soon as I typed the heading it took me to a world that is extraordinarily ecstatic.  There’s no satisfaction greater than the feeling of satisfaction itself.  A world that belongs to you and where everything happens just the way you had anticipated.
On interviewing a lukewarm (in terms of money) guy once about what he hates the most…believe it or not…. he said HUMANS. As if they were the ultimate foes of his desires, wisdom, capabilities, decisions and what not. Well the list has no last word.  Tell me when did it happen that you got drunk and spoke up to your mom without getting scolded? When was the time you could comfortably get your girlfriend at your place and share some quality time with her? (Yeh India hai meri jaan)……when did it happen that your family approved you of doing a low salary job though you said you were happy? Even at work, people gave the “I can do much better than this…….u don’t deserve it” look when you were appreciated by your boss.  “What the heck! Why can’t I do anything without you people interfering?”  Were the questions he fired me with!!!  Hell! I wasn’t really protesting. It was true after all. I wish him some peace of mind.

Mom!!! Why are you still sleeping? Who will make my Tiffin? I have to go to college. I hate you. You always make me late.
What nonsense is this!! I return late at home from work and can’t wait for dinner. Why didn’t you finish your work? Watching the horrible TV serials!!! I will cut the cable wire.
Why do you have to interfere every time mom? I am big enough to take my own decisions now.

Hmmm….Wish such a housewife had any place to go to which had few moments of solace.

Coming to myself who lives far off from my home, it’s easier to scribe this one. Studying, working hard trying to keep up the hopes and expectations of my family, eating, sleeping, gaming, studying, roaming in the campus with friends and partying with no one to stop me-----I am a free bird now. Living with friends has never been so much fun. And then one fine day I fall prey to the law of nature-all living things are ephemeral.  I find a friend stealing my stuff when I trusted him and gave him my room keys. The next day someone breaks my laptop just because he was angry at someone I don’t even know. And the other day the project idea I shared with a friend has leaked out and another team is ready with the design.  I give my share of food to someone hungry and the next morning the same food is in my dustbin because he didn’t approve me of behaving like “God”. Now this is insane.  Gimme a break!!
 That’s when I realize that nothing lasts forever. Everybody is here with a purpose. But who will cry when I die? I just couldn’t fill my page with some names I can count on.  I wish there was a place for me far from this madness.  I just got reminded of the song paying significance here…………
na jahan log ho
na jahan bhar ke log
na shehar mein basen
lakhon logon ka shor
chand lamhein tu inse mujhe door kar
chal chale apne ghar humsafar

The above are just few instances of an appalling, darker side of life that is undesirable yet cannot be eradicated. One has to rediscover himself while walking with the crowd. Walking far from the madding crowd is an illusive solution.

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