COMFORTABLY NUMB


Wake me up from my bed, for I can’t rise up on my own. Make me breathe the morning breeze, for I have lost the sense of feel. Make me relish the delicious dishes, for I have lost the taste of life. Make me walk like the ideal man, run like the four-wheeled van, for I have forgotten the process of locomotion.  Make me realize the truth value of my dreams, for I cannot distinguish it from harsh reality. Make me capable to strive for excellence, for I have lost the reason to fight. I find myself similar to the BROKEN WINGS…..how strong enough to cross the ocean with? ……the BROKEN WINGS…..how far should I go drifting in the wind??
You speak to me, but I can’t hear you…….you try to make me cry, but my tears are dry…….you  try to make me work, but I am comfortably numb. I have fallen apart and my existence is doubtful.   I have stopped responding to stimuli. I am losing control on my mind and body.  I have lost the power to think and react; I need you to help me. I am lost in this crowd. I cannot look for myself. Wish this never ending maze had a way out. Why did it happen to me? Why couldn’t I stand up to the thorns of life? Was I born to see this day as today? I have gone so numb….I can barely feel…..

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