VIRTUAL MEEEEEEE


Once upon a time I had emotions……

I cared for people and loved them. Wanted them to improve their mistakes and be good at heart.  I was the real me…..
I am good to people who are good to me…….tough with the tough……
“Aap bhale to jag bhala” as we say in Hindi is somewhat a better version.

I am the latter one now. Just like the morning sunshine that brightens up everyone’s life. I am good with the good, better with the worse. Somehow I have now learnt to wear that plastic smile on my face, the thing I should have done in the early years of my life, I would have had much more than what I possess today. A world of friends, ready to be with me.  People hovering around me as if I am their only ray of light. When A says B is bad, I agree. When B says he is good, I agree. It doesn’t really matter if both are good or bad. I know that I have turned bad. The world did not like me the way I was…. sweet, sober, innocent, speaking the truth and to the point, always correcting mistakes that my friends made.  Somehow they didn’t like my attitude. One by one, all were gone. They found better company. I was standing like the solitary tree up the broken ridge.  With nobody to hold me when I was falling apart. I had to rethink my ways. I looked myself up the mirror and realized that everything is virtual, even my own image. How could I be real in the eye of the virtual?? Was the question that bothered me for days…..

And then one fine morning, when I was going for my workplace, I saw a dreadful accident. I munched my hotdog and passes away as if nothing happened, for I was getting late for the casino and my friend promised me to give me the new tender had if I made him win. I helped people at their work, made them laugh for no good reason, never pointed out on anybody’s mistakes or character.  How could I? After all I had lost my own. . Compromised with life in a fair manner, did stuff that pleased others rather than pleasing myself.
It hurts when you don’t follow your heart and have to go the way the world wants you to.  But at least you can keep others satisfied and be a part of the society. The only part that nightmares me is the real me diminishing in the virtual me………
Once upon a time I had emotions……..

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  1. PrateekOctober 11, 2014 at 5:14 PM

    Chanced upon your blog from nowhere. Read most of it. Feels great. Feels like knowing someone while not knowing her at all. You love writing, don't you? Do not let IIM change that and keep writing.

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